The Words You Don't Hear

The things she says, but you don’t hear

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I understand you.

I know that you’re trying, it’s just that I’m still recovering.

I just want to make sure that you’re not like the rest of them.

There is no wall, I’m just seeing how far you will go for me.

I know you didn’t do it, I just like hearing you prove the naysayers in my mind wrong.

I have to make sure that you don’t confuse me with what society proclaims me as.

It’s not that I think I’m right all the time, I just need you to start respecting me as someone you can think with, and not treat me as if I’m someone on the opposing team.

I’m sorry for the way I talk to you. I hate my past for making me hate you before I even knew you.

So many men failed before you, and I wish they never came before you.

It’s not that I’m crazy, or that I’m overreacting, or I’m choosing to be jealous, but when you respond to her, I start to wonder if she’s really God’s plan for you.

I want to give you the world, I just need to see that you’d be willing to do the same.

At times I feel very low, your inspiration matters.

If you cried, I wouldn’t think you were weak. I’d be satisfied to know that you know what feelings feel like.

We live in a world where True Love is not respected, and I’m afraid our control, to the control of those forces.

I really want you, I just don’t want you to take advantage of me. My biggest fear is being wrong.

The Things he says, but you don’t hear

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I understand you, I just need you to understand me

I know that what you’re saying is true, I just like to hear you remind me that you’re not like what society says about you.

I just want to be sure that you’re truly like no other girl.

Your responses to some of the things I say, decide the way I respond to you.

Sometimes I don’t know if you love me or if you hate me.
I really don’t want to leave you, but sometimes I feel like separation would be the only thing that helps us both. But I really don’t want to go.

My biggest fear is losing you. Just wish that my tongue was brave enough to tell you, as brave as it is to lie to you.

I feel like I’m competing with everyone who wants you, even those who don’t want you yet, that’s why I do so much to you & for you.

I get aggravated, feeling like I have to compete for you, so I like it when you remind me that you’re mine.

Thoughts of someone else with you, inspires me to keep loving you.

I want to marry you, but my fear is divorce.

My biggest fear is losing your soul to the worlds pleasures, you becoming too bored with mine.

I hate arguing in public, I hate us looking like we’re defeated.

There are times when I feel very low, I don’t show you because the last thing I want you to see in me is weakness.

I really want you, but you’ll think that I just want to take advantage of you, and that I have pre-plans of departure. My biggest fear is never being able to prove you wrong.

My biggest fear is…..

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Strength, Courage & Wisdom – The "Typical" Black Woman

A Requested video response to the viral video “Are Black Women Submissive To White Men”. How the person behind the video chose to describe the actions of black women when they are in relationships or dealing with black men, was by calling them “Typical Black Women.” Many young black women and men, did not take that comment, nor the whole video likely. Watch and see the responses from some African American college students, from the University of North Carolina at Greensboro (UNCG)

What is A Typical Black Woman?

"Jesus Wouldn't Like That" Poem

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I stand by the cross
The bible says those who abide by Christ, never lost
So I
Do my best to keep my honor
Churchless souls, I eat they flesh like piranhas
What you wearing? Who you dress like?
That’s not Christ
Who you worship? How many times you pray? How strong your faith?
If it’s not like mine, I’m sorry I
Can’t accept you
You not my sister, Can’t be my brother
I can’t feed you
When you go to places that accept sinners in them
Gotta be separation
No integration, a little hatred, is necessary
Against those who don’t follow Christ name
May they feel pain
While we saved, and we pray
Amen Amen Amen
Don’t you dare curse
Jesus wouldn’t like that
Don’t come to church every Sunday? Oh no
Jesus wouldn’t like that
So we don’t have that
You having sex? You not married?
Guess what, you going to hell because
Jesus wouldn’t like that
Give your soul to my religion, and put Christ in your intentions
Jesus would really like that
Let me put my hand on your head
I’ll raise the dead
Because the way you living, isn’t living
It’s Satanism, and if I allowed it to continue
Jesus wouldn’t like that.
Message:  God loves. All the messengers that God sent to this earth, in their messages were instructions for the world to abide by peace, love, unity & faith. Jesus himself was of no religion, he was a man who represented brotherhood, and in all his preaching’s were messages for all to come together and love one another, not judge. To judge is the right or the action which God himself commands that he is the only one with that right of action. He warned of false prophets as well as those who use his name and the name of his messengers, in vain and in falsehood. Do not feel bad or ashamed because you’re not abiding by a certain ritual that you were told you should swear to. God wants you to be happy, God wants you to love all of his children, and most of all, God wants you to live the life he’s blessed you with, along with the free will that he granted you.
Peace & Blessings.

Forgive & Move On

In this world we are given the freedom of choice.
It’s not every time that we make the right choices.
We make mistakes. We’re human. It’s our right to.
These mistakes have their ways of hurting us. Either physically, mentally, or emotionally. We can end up feeling some sort of pain from certain decisions we make or have made. It’s possible that the pain can be long lasting from a choice that was made long ago. It still aches our soul. And sometimes, the pain we feel is not from something we’ve particularly done. It could be the pain of betrayal, disappointment, and of disbelief that came from the choices that were made by another.
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Tears, a lot of tears. Suicidal thoughts, you feel like life just raped all the innocence out of you. You feel so drained. Headaches, pain, the pain in your heart. It seems like it will all last forever and there are two things that you don’t want in your ear, the voice of the person that hurt you, and someone telling you that God will take care of it. You just don’t want to hear it, not at that moment, because if God can take care of your pain, why couldn’t he have prevented it? Is your question. Imagine though, what if you’d never stumbled upon that situation which caused your pain? What if you were never able to feel it, or was unable to see the very thing that from your hurt, made you realize it wasn’t meant to be in your life. Friendship, Relationship, Job or any situation etc.  It would have never escaped you, you would have never known that it had no necessary long term need to be in your life, and it had to happen in order for you to progress. Which allows you for yourself to evolve, to grow, to become a better and much more understanding you. Maybe that sounds a little bit more like Gods love huh? Being able to cancel out the bad in your world, so there’s enough room for the good to come in.

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You know the world is a very beautiful place, every individual just chooses to perceive it in their own way. How do you perceive? What do you allow? What do you tolerate? These are the things that decide the kind of world you live in, your answers.

From the spirit to the flesh, we were all born human. We are all spirits who were birthed into a temple which we call the flesh, and it’s our temples we must protect. We must care for it, we must decide its good & we must decide its bad, we can deliver it heaven, or let it live in hell. The choice is all ours. So is the choice of how we allow outside forces to affect our spirits, causing the emotions like pain & suffering. As humans, we carry the emotional trait. We feel things, things can either make us feel low, or make us feel high, but it’s our choice on the matter. Will you allow something to affect you in the matter of which it intends? Yeah, it’s good to hurt sometimes, it’s good to feel pain, because through pain are lessons, and through lessons is evolution, and after evolution is the final product, who you become.

Allow whatever it is that has made you uncomfortable, make you uncomfortable. Don’t fight it, don’t deny it. There is a reason for it. Just don’t let it take you.

There are times which you may not have realized it, when you became lost in your emotions. Completely loosing self-control of who you are, and doing things which latter you realized, would not have occurred, if been in your sober state. This happens when you forfeit your strength, power & ability to control your own situation. Your own mind, your own thoughts, your own actions, your own life. You own it all. Don’t let nobody or nothing, defeat you by stealing from you what is your birthright to own.

Forgive & move on.
Forgive & move on.
Forgive & move on.
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Forgive the situation, forgive yourself for being a part of it, forgive the emotions, forgive the person, and move on to the evolving you, the better you. Now stronger than ever, no longer to be defeated by anything that has once attempted to defeat you, & living in your better world…

Forgive & move on.

THIFB-Chris-Walking

Message To the Black Man & The Black Woman

Part 2. of My message. I hope that you not enjoy it, but you get a feeling of awakening from this. That you get a feeling of consciousness of not just your life, but lives of those around  you. I hope that from this, you realize that there has always been a solution to your problems and there always existed an answer to your “Why’s”.

For part 1. You can visit my facebook page, link below.

https://www.facebook.com/dunbarroh

I am You

I am not a mystery
I am not difficult to find
I am all men and all women and all life
I’m their very thinking but they do not realize this
You do not have to look deep to find me
You do not have to search through the thousands of books which have been written about me
You do not have to go to the monasteries and temples where they teach of me
I am always right here
I am everywhere
There is no formula or great hidden secret for finding me
I have always been right here
The truth is so simple and so powerful
That man overlooks me
I am not hidden
I am not under tons of earth nor am i deep within the flesh
I am always everywhere
You need not do many many mantras
You need not endure many starving days of painful fasting
I am always with you
I am always present
I am You
I am not hidden as they think
I am all
Every part of you I am
I always have been and i always will be
Do not search deep you will bypass me
Do not withdraw from others
Ununited you will never find me
For i am in all life
I am in every man and in every woman
I am your very being, your every action, your every thought
Oh man, seek not so deeply
Open thy eyes that tho may see me
For i am everywhere
I am not hidden as you have thought
I am your soul

Credit for these words is due to audioenlightenment. Follow their youtube page which is “Youarecreators”. Visit their website @ youarecreatos.com, for an audio version of his. 

#DearInsecurity 

Anxious… can’t relax. Steady worried.
I need you, like you need my mind. I feed you, and you eat my time.
Constantly checking status updates and gram comments. Nothing looks out of the ordinary now, but you have this feeling which you call intuition, and you just know something wrong is bound to happen. You just waiting for it to be in existence.
Would you take my woes, if I gave you my soul?
Patiently waiting, watching minutes move up to hours. You focus your energy on it, you think about it, you always asking questions that you already know are potential argument makers.
Let me see, just show it to me, I can’t sleep, baby I need em. Answers.
You say you just want em for clarity. You tell God to fall back, and let the devil get up on you….
I rather death because that heartbeat, can’t be real, it just don’t, give me life. I just want to know if it’s really mine, alright?
Ok, he said he’s loyal, she said she’s loyal to me. That’s it, that’s all I needed, I just got to believe him. Wait.. Stop it! These voices in my head, they killing me. What you trying to say? That he’s lying to me? But he swore to me? Ok, well I’ll try it again.
Now I’m anxious again, can’t relax, again I’m worried. Back to checking status updates and gram comments, still nothing looks out of the ordinary. Still this, feeling that I have inside, you know they call it the devils tuition. Even when something is right, he tells you you’re wrong, and that something painful is bound to happen. Like a fool I’m, patiently waiting, watching minutes move up to hours. I feel like the only reason that I believe I’m being deceived is, because I’m thinking about it. So I go back to asking him questions. “Give me your phone, passwords to everything, just show it to me, I need my answers.” Then another argument happens. This time he’s had enough, he packs his things then said to me, “you rather kill a relationship, because you have doubts that it’s real. No matter how much true love I give to you, it’s still not enough for your life. You need consistent reminders, and an imagination to fulfill. I’ll still be there for you, but I can’t be here with you. I hope one day you’ll be able to see, the love that I had for you.”
Ok, so what’s next? He’s gone and I guess my worries are too, so now it’s just me and you. Hello?… Hello? Say something! Hello?… Oh, you left me too.
While you’re looking for a reason to be hurt, to feel pain, someone is just looking for someone to hold them, a reason to feel love, and be a part of it too.